Bubbles the Fish

Bubbles the Fish. That's the silver lining that I could find in the situation that's currently going down at our place. No, we didn't get a new pet (actually, we did get a couple of new fish but they are as-yet un-named). Bubbles the Fish is a pediatric mask used for inhalation of medication. We are currently using it on Little One:

I'm so frickin' thankful that we already had a nebulizer, medication, and this fancy mask that we had delivered when Youngest Boy was originally diagnosed with wheezing that fateful day in late December a mere two years ago. We never used it for him but it's now being used every four hours round the clock for this little sweetheart so that she can breathe.

I don't understand why this happens to our kids. I don't know how to fix it. I don't have all of the answers. But I feel very, very alone. Everyone offers to help but no one can. And truthfully, I just want to BE left alone. I need to process this newest diagnosis and make my own conclusions. I need to get myself to the place where I am mentally dealing with this (physically, I don't have a choice because their lives depend on my actions right now). And even though my family and friends (and even my husband, who has to make his own place of peace) are offering "help" there's none to be given. Thank goodness that blogging is cheap therapy.